The Mouse's Roar

Hanging out at my bro's apt, which happens to be next to the United Nations. Had lunch at Bryant Park and now off to spend some time at NY Public Library!

seriously i feel like the laziest person alive... i borrowed Bird By Bird from the library to inspire myself to start writing seriously and haven't even written on LJ since i got it.. even mellie 's wonderful writing challenge that i had thought to take on has been brushed aside... (how are you doing with that by the way?)

so yeah i suck

in other news, everybody needs to start reading the manga Shinobi Life.. it's really yummy and intriguing and flangsty and all the good things good shoujo manga is... smartycat are you reading this?

i'm also feeling deprived of good Zutara fic.. tho Chains by Wohitzi is finally turning in an interesting direction! I want some well thought out post-series character development!! if I knew how to write it, i'd do it myself! my one fic idea kind of died.. do you remember it coley_merrin ? I think it grew too big in my head and got convinced that i'd never be able to write it all.. i need to do that 1 inch picture frame thing..

anyway grandlarseny , today is that last day of june and i never finished posting my fic recs... but then again.. nobody else did either... soooo.. i don't feel so bad? ::sheepish:: do we have a new challenge for july? maybe i should just post my recs here...

ok that's enough rambling for now i guess...i'm all over the place lately..maybe that's why it's so hard for me to just sit down and do something -_-

SO I WAS ACTUALLY RIGHT!

coley_merrin , crystaltear do you remember this convo we had on IM in like...february?

 

( i knew i wasn't crazy! )

 

for wordynessie who gave me 1xR, prompt: path unwinding... I wrote a true drabble for this one! 100 words!! (you might find this feels like an epilogue to my fic arc, Ordinary.. well if any of you remember it, that is)


There is the past and there is the future. And what of now? Now, she sits beside Heero, while he reads his book and she writes in her journal. Now, they rest… together. They've each walked their own paths, trying to find their way until they found each other.  So they walked side by side as their paths converged until they reached the end. And now, side by side, they breathe for a little while. Now, they have all the time in the world to choose from the paths unwinding before them. This time they’ll walk them hand in hand.



in other news, coley_merrin recommended the book, Bird by Bird.. so I'm attempting to write without an internal chopping block editor from now on.. let's see how long that lasts ;) so yeah feel free to provide me with more prompts... whatever you're in the mood for.. check out myanimelist for fandom choices

Sorry for taking so long! Here's the little drabble from smartycat 's prompt: Corn on the cob/Character: Faye Valentine

Faye Valentine did not eat corn on the cob. There was just no attractive way to do it. And if Faye couldn’t do something in a sexy way, it just wasn’t worth doing at all. So what if she was hungry? A girl didn’t maintain her figure by eating every time she felt like it after all. No matter what kind of happy sounds Ed was making while gnawing at that bright yellow piece of Genetically Modified Organic Produce, she wouldn’t lower herself to that level.

Ed grinned at her in mid-gnaw, yellow-white kernels lodged in her teeth and clinging to the edges of her lips. Faye raised an eyebrow and pursed her lips, before turning up her nose with a tiny sniff. That is exactly why you’d never catch her dead eating one of those things.

“Look Faye-Faye! It’s you!” Ed brandished her unfinished cob proudly. Sure enough, the corn had been eaten off cleanly from all but two little strips around the middle, looking remarkably like it was wearing her tiny pleather top and shorts. Ed had even colored the top black and drawn in a little red smirk with marker on the pointed end of the cob. The real Faye growled and lunged at Ed.

“Why you little—“

Got this one off of jamimegan Downloads of songs available at my mediafire account as always!

Soundtrack for the movie of you:
1) Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.).
2) Put it on shuffle.
3) Press play.
4) For every question, type the song that's playing.
5) When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6) Don't lie.
7) Tag five friends.

Opening Credits: Gloomy Sunday by Billie Holiday

Waking Up: Tamagawa by Spitz (i need a translation of this to figure out if it fits)

First Day of School: Fly by Nick Drake (a nostalgia-type song i guess)

Falling In Love: Alibi by Duncan Sheik (eh.. i seem to have a very random collection of songs)

Fight Song: I'll Be Home for Christmas by Frank Sinatra (LOL!! WTF)

Break-Up Song: A Winter's Tale by Queen (oh whatever.. i don't even know anymore)

Prom: The Walk by Imogen Heap (Promenade means a walk right?)

Mental Breakdown: My Life by Dido

Flashback: Hero and Princesses by Vanessa Carlton (finally!)

Wedding: The Human Game by Lisa Gerrard and Pieter Bourke (the ocean waves in this makes me think beach wedding)

Birth of a Child: This Love by Maroon 5

Final Battle: I'm Alright by Sugarcult (good beat to fight to)

Death Scene: Miracles by Pet Shop Boys (kind of bittersweet, death is just the beginning ...or maybe i don't die after all!)

Great Death: Everbody's Gotta Learn Sometime by Beck

Funeral Song: Breathe In by Frou Frou ("Is this it?")

Ending Credits: Make This Go On Forever by Snow Patrol (perfect!! "It could take my whole damn life to make this right")


oh yeah! i tag scdsam , smartycat , me10drama , crystaltear and grandlarseny 

from adaon6 - Character: Duo, Word: Hug

It’s like a scene from a half-remembered dream; he recalls the scent of candles and incense and that musty smell you can only find in the wooden pews of an old church. He remembers the feeling of warm limbs wrapped in layers and layers of cloth enveloping him, creating a cocoon of safety, protection and love; at once trapping him and rescuing him into their folds.

He wonders now if it’s a real memory or only a wish, a conjured image to help him through the wars and their aftermath. He compares the feeling of holding this petite and fragile woman to that image in his mind, notes the differences and wonders again. How strange to be able to embrace someone so completely, to wrap his hands around her and find that they overlap. How odd that this time he is the one enveloping her and still the cocoon he creates covers him as well; in safety, protection and love.

~~~

I'm still taking prompts here!

gotta keep that brain pumping!

Graaaagh!!!

Worst feeling in the world is wanting to write, having the time to write, and sitting down to find out there is nothing in your head worth writing.

Maybe I need to go slow, so.. pick a series/character and give me a word.. i will try my best to push something out.. (and yes, even drama series, novels and random shoujo manga i'm reading is open)


also, i'm trying to compile a list at myanimelist.net so you can check me out there to see what i've seen and read (though it's nowhere near a complete list)  you should all join too! it's like goodreads for otaku :-P

but yeah, prompts please!!!


ETA: smartycat !! i just read ch 112 of Parfait Tic...aauuuuggghhh stupid Ichi!!

Fun meme!!

1. Music Player > Shuffle
2. Take first line of 20 songs
3. Make poem

Well, I've got a candle
I caught a glimpse
She comes down to Georgia
She is smilin' like heaven is down on earth

I love the way you wake up
Just a lazy cat in a dog eat dog world
Listen as your day unfolds
It's the season of grace coming out of the void

Do you remember when we were just kids
The sidewalk bends
Time keeps on slipping
They're tearing up streets again

Need to know if you're letting go
Every time we lie awake
Do not get me wrong
Will you be my favorite regret?

I have climbed the highest mountains
I am stretched on your grave
Watch your step, love is broken
Inside out, upside down, twisting beside myself

( List of songs used ...and downloads for your listening pleasure! )

i have a lot of random thoughts in my head today so i will use the space i have handy to get them all out

1) i have a friend (more like my brother's friend) who finished his PhD from Princeton and is now teaching at Georgetown.  He gets kicks out of arguing ppl into circles or at least until they strangle him out of frustration.  He really enjoys it.  This bothers me.  But every time I bring it up he proceeds to argue with me -_-; I've given up trying to disagree with him, but it still bothers me.

2) I shouldn't get so bothered by above-mentioned argumentative-ness because I have my own perverse desires.  I often contemplate, very seriously, causing havoc for no apparent reason other than to see what happens.  I look at a busy intersection and think "i wonder what would happen if i walked right into the middle of that?" or i think about throwing my cell phone through a store window, would thecell phone break? how mad would the store owner be? would ppl crowd around to see what happened? what if i decided to drive on the wrong side of the road?  how long could i last before getting into and accident? yes.. very disturbing, i know. you can take solace in the fact that i have never acted upon these urges.  I am thinking of writing a story with a character who doesn't have my self-control/inhibition... i need a plot though

3) I just finished watching the Skip Beat anime.. were there really only 25 eps?? how could they just stop it there? it was worse than the ending to the karekano anime.. seriously.. but i loved seeing ren in action.. guh.. so yummy

4) the FMA manga is kinda weird.. i can't pinpoint exactly what i find off about it, but i'm not enjoying it as much as i enjoyed the anime...

5) i'm being lazy about my final paper.. my adorable prof was kind enough to excuse me from the rest of classes as long as i handed in the final... but i still haven't started it... i need to not set myself up for failure (again)

6) i'm hungry

( i'm getting really good at these fake cuts! )

see told ya i'd be writing fic!  this is the Mr and Mrs. Elric piece though.. the Royai will be coming in a few days i hope... i need some inspiration..

and! at the behest of my entire f-list (seriously you guys), i have started reading the FMA manga.. i can take a hint! so let's where it takes me eh?

also, smartycat ! did you notice the new chapter of skip beat!??? ren really needs to kiss that girl til she's good and weak-kneed... god he is so yummy, i just can't take it anymore

holy crap ppl! why didn't you tell me how crazy the ending to this series was???? i finally got through all of the final 15 episodes i had neglected to watch and though my reaction is a like a year or 2 overdue i needed to share

( i'm still in wtf mode )

oh man i'm gonna have to start watching the new series now aren't i? out of work for two weeks and i'm already back to being a crack-fiend again :-P

woohoo second drabble in 48 hrs!! again for 31_days but this time a Relena-centric one! So I know you'll all enjoy ^_~

follow the fake cut

in other news, i've been reading a lot of poetry by Rumi lately... he really had a way with words.. i was able to hunt down the original persian so i could get a feel for the rhythm as well as the meaning.. it's been a fun project during my home-bound fortnight..

I've also finally gotten around to finishing up the first season of FMA!  I actually stopped watching a couple episode after Maes died so it's been nice to catch up!  Though I've already been spoiled for most of the big plot points... my next project is to watch the end of Wolf's Rain.. I think I was 4 or 5 episodes away from the final ep and it got licensed.  I didn't enjoy the dub enough to watch religiously.  Actually the only dubs that ever really hooked me (other than GW of course) were Cowboy Bebop and Trigun.

yay for having the time to enjoy my life again! work really sucks the fun out of living >_< if only i didn't have to worry about money

wheee! I finally drabbled after almost a year of no fanficcing!! it's not much, but it's for Avatar, which is a series i've been dying to write for quite a while...  it was for 31_days of course.. i may write more zutara drabbles for the rest of this month's prompts, since they all seem pretty good and easy to work with...

anyway, without further ado, here's my little Zutara niblet... enjoy!

wow ok.. NOTE TO SELF: txtLJ so does not work for more than 3 sentences at a time..

and yay! my computer is back on my lap...

0_0

why the heck did you guys have to pick THIS week to be so productive???

::will be reading backlogs until next weekend::

e 'rents have been hovering like mad. I guess i should be grateful that they're here. :-P

er, but as always i am available on AIM under the screenname sammiej0e. It goes straight to my phone. I haven't had a chance to get bored yet because th

Since

Testing... Got home from the hospital today. Haven't gotten to my computer yet

i just spent like 5 hrs tagging all of my entries from 2003-2005 (which is all my entries made before tagging was introduced to lj)

it was fun to look back at all those entries... 2004 was a tough year for me, but i was able to see a change occur within myself in the entries from that year.. i was definitely happier by the end of it..

the nice thing is i found all of this fic i had written! i'm thinking i should post it on FFN at some point.. i also need to get back in to writing for 31_days again.. some of my best stuff came from those prompts.. remember that FMP AU fic with Sousuke and Kurz as boxers, crystaltear ? i even have some 1xR stuff! 

something else i noticed as i was going over the old entries, is how much i've stopped sharing emotionally.. i don't write much about how i feel anymore.. and maybe it's because it's not spilling out all over the place in manic-depressive fits anymore, but i'm afraid of repeating past mistakes and hiding my negative emotions instead of acknowledging them... i don't want to fall into that again.. i don't want to be that person who pretends they're ok and puts on a happy face for everyone when they're falling apart inside... then again, i feel like most of my problems right now aren't a big deal.. i don't need consoling or cheering up.. i feel like i'm handling everything ok.. but things bother me and i should express that, before that irritation and frustration turns into something worse..

so here we go...

( lots of rambling about RL )

there's more that's been going on but i'm really tired now.. this may be continued at some point (tomorrow, hopefully?)

thanks for reading guys